2004

So I Want To Crawl Back In This Whole

26 January 2004

So I want to crawl back in this whole, this hole, this place I go
I want to crawl back in this place I go

You know how it goes
You know how it shows on my body my face my soul
You know when I say hello
You know when I say hey…how are you


It’s me crying

for love and help

it’s me that doesn’t know
how to say hello
I want to go somewhere else then where I’ve been

so I want to crawl back in this whole I know


and it’s you that can help me
find my way out into the cold sunshine
that begins to warm me up and
break my shell and sooth my soul
and make me whole again


so I want to walk above the hole
and cover the cave with a steel plate
and dance around
or fill it up with earth solid
so there is no more hole

I'll live after we talk

10 October 2004

4-10-04 washington sq park sunny early spring day on park bench at northeast corner, also used in Maybe Me film

I’ll live after we talk
I'll live after we meet for a while
I'll live when I go home and am alone
I'll live tomorrow
I'll live by myself
I'll live in my
Mind where I
Know myself

I'll live without
You
I'll live without her I'll live
Without him and I'll give from
Within

I'll be you and I'll be him I'll be whoever
I want to be with and you wont
Even know it.

You're Broken And You're Strong

10 April 2004

after with peter at breakfast Saturday morning at Andrews and share 4th st

you're broken and you're strong and
you're apparently not wrong
your pain is real and you're created to feel
all the things that you feel

you're created to feel and created to deal with
the cards you play and the games you
allow other to say

you're intoxicatingly beautiful in all that you do
and you’re the only one unable to know its true

your bright and your young, your light and under the (bright blue wonderful ADD) sun
your strong and your kind your of purity of mind