2007

When you were young

30 March 2007

Black sketch book
3-30-07

When you were young
When you were old

When you looked beyond your own control
This is when you opened up
This is when you began to shut up

Sit with this long enough and you will be
Tired of the life you made.

What would it be like to
Walk with you
What would it be like to make love with you
And so I wait
And wonder still
For if I try and make it fly.

Just when you think it’s done

05 April 2007

From about a month ago: 4-5-07
Red sharpie ink on square napkin- 3 sides.

just when you think it's done
and you want to run
stop and wait your turn
the wheels about to spin
there’s more and more for you to love
there’s more and more for you
alter your mind and increase your
divine infection

Love is all that I know

05 April 2007

From about a month ago: 4-5-07
Red sharpie ink on square napkin- 3 sides.

love is all that I know
come say the title of the show
offer your love to all you know
simple words always begin to flow
into you
send a note to all concerned
send your love to all that feel under
let the light blaze through

I want a new pair of glasses

05 April 2007

I want a new pair of glasses.
That make me see
All that I can be

I want a new sofa
One that will tell me you told me so.
I want to let love in
I want to feel the hand of god
Is at work for me
So I can walk away from all
Responsibility

Incomplete

05 April 2007

Not sure if I can sleep
Seems the words don’t rhyme
But I can eat

The love I give makes me weak
The times like these
Im imcomplete

Lexapro

05 April 2007

feelin funny
got some new drugs in me
suppose to help me feel better
well see.

Feelin funny tonight
1st day on the new meds
that is to help me but we will
just have to wait and see.

First night on Lexapro
Feel like a gotta go…..somewhere

Simplify

05 April 2007

simplify what you try to say
the wind will always show you the way
let up on the steam you
introduce
walk inside your guide of truth

The Wind Will Always Show You The Way

05 April 2007

simplify what you try to say
the wind will always show you the way
let up on the steam you
produce
walk inside your guide of truth

feelin funny
got some new drugs in me
suppose to help me feel better
we’ll see

feelin funny tonight
1st day on the new meds
that is to help me but we will
just have to wait and see.

First night on Lexapro
Feel like I gotta go…somewhere

Not sure if I can sleep
Seems the words done rhyme
But I can eat

The love I give makes me weak
The times like these
I’m incomplete

You Could Have Said

05 April 2007

you could have said
the monkey was led to another place
your capitol seems heavy
your time seems right
your skin seems tight

let the tide roll in and
allow for the ballad of being thin.

I Tried So Hard

07 April 2007

Mead five star

and I tried so hard
to be myself

I lied and tried not to
I lied and tried not to

And I tried so hard
To be myself

You told me not to

Although not in words
Your actions told me so.

You told me not to
You told me not to

And I tried so hard
To be myself,

I lied and tried not to

The Last Time I Felt Like This

07 April 2007

Mead Five Star

the last time I felt like this
I went another way
Lost the words to say

How I felt

The last time I felt like this
I lied to you
Didn’t know what to do.
Made some bad choices
Got caught in the sources of others
Last time I felt like this
I want somewhere else

Got caught in the wind of

Self

Call me a cab quickly
Call me a ride

Take me away before I say something I regret

These Were Secrets

07 April 2007

Mead Five Star
lunch with Virginia…east side (2)
Saturday afternoon – evening- 4/7/07

I went on a picnic

There were secrets

There were pleasantries

There were secrets

I went on a picnic

Overly conscious Underrated

Obtuse

The sun shone shined

We all waded in a line

There we were

Naked in time

You Were A Great Mathematician

07 April 2007

Mead Five Star
(note written backwards from john: to read: ts eliot poetry four quarters wasteland hollow man “ the short happy life of frances amcomber, short stores hemingway from john?)

you were a great mathematician

you added up fine
you knew how many there were
you could always tell us the number

they didn’t add up.
They didn’t add up

They didn’t
They didn’t

Add up and up and up.
Add up and up and up.

You were a great mathematician

You added up fine

Blew my mind

Blew my mind.

Let Yourself Free

08 April 2007

2:45 PM

Mead Five Star
Sunday

let yourself free
to twightlight time until
you become what you will be

little be know to
trail the loss of this?

Round this time
It starts to sing

Let yourself free
Until you sing
drop your needs and

forget what you feed on
give up what you feed on

let go of what you dream on

Penetrated

08 April 2007

Mead Five Star
(I think I was watching aggie and john water skiing?)

Penetrated

Penetrated polkadotted parsley flakes.

Penetrated
Perforated
Polite

Paid his dues
And wont walk away
Sending light and cards of truth
To those that seem just right

Call the rain to follow
Call the others to swallow

The truth that keeps

Them from smiling

And puts them into clouded waters.

The Tide You Break

Wednesday 11 April 2007

8:06 PM

Mead Five Star

the tide you break

the role you take

equals the numbers game

that’s played on you

the tide you break

the roles you take

make half the rules

and break your tools

to trick yourself

is all you do

to trick your mother

its up to you.

The tide you break

The smells you fake

The tales you tell

Will only sell yourself

CHORUS In the long run It’s you who died In the long run

It’s you who cries

Out for help

In the long run

Its you who dies.

Still Feel Like Hell

Wednesday 27 December 2007

Been another day or two and still feel like hell
Been antoher day or two and still feel like hell
Liquid coming out of all my pores
Liquid coming out from above and below
Liquid comeing out from above and below
What do you know
What do you know
How do you tell
How do you feel
Like a piece of lonely cold steel lodged under a bucket outside of a barn
Like a lonely piece of steel lodged under a bucket
Outside of the barn
In Menomonie, Wisconsin